Every week, Wednesday is a crappy day.
I call it transition day.
That is the day I say my super “goodbyes” and “I love you’s” before they get on the bus.
That is the day I have to ride my preschooler to school and not come back for her.
Oh how my heart aches.
I know it is only a few days. I know it gives me more of a chance to relax and breathe. As much as I can with a three month old in the house.
But, I hate them.
Every Wednesday I think about my girls almost non stop. Hope they are having a good day. Which I basically do every day, but Wednesday I know I won’t get to see their smiling faces as they get off the bus. I won’t get the chance to ask them “how was school?”.
I don’t get to pick my 4 year old up from school and spend the next few hours with her without her older sisters.
Not to mention, Wednesdays seem to be particularly rough for her. Sometimes having break downs in school.
Wednesdays may be hump day for those who work. Yes, it’s the middle of the week and getting closer to the break the weekend offers.
For me, it’s the beginning of the count down until I see my girls faces again. One of the worst things about divorce.
So this morning, as I drove my one princess to school, we laughed and we talked and her happiness made me smile.
That song “Feel it still” was on the radio. (The only thing I can think of when I hear it, is that dude on the treadmill). I don’t normally listen to the radio because it is not my genre of music, but she was grinning and grooving. Like any mom would, I joined in.
I captured that moment at a red light.
And it has had me smiling ever since.
So, I am going to try to make the best of the time they are away. Because, in a few days, I have the opportunity to make more memories with them. That is something to look forward to.