I have been feeling really good and motivated lately. 

Yesterday I took a walk. For exercise purposes. 

Working out, training, exercising…all have been the furthest thought on my mind. 

Not to say that it doesn’t bother me, I miss being active. But, a shitstorm has been crushing me. Yes, I have been making excuses. 

I used to always say that you make excuses to find the easy way out, and that is true. I just totally lost my way. 

In that, i admit, I wanted the easy way out, because I just didn’t have the strength and motivation to tackle everything. I had to prioritize. 

But, I am starting to gain strength again. 

Took that same walk today. Instead of walking the whole way, I jogged the last half of the distance back to the house. 

Everything is one day at a time. 

I am pregnant, so I must be careful. I have been having serious sciatica nerve pain and problems, so I don’t want to aggravate that. I also don’t want to let it win, and have me mostly on my ass or in bed for the next 6 months. 

I have gained 13 lbs. More than probably I should have at this point. Yes, the doritos are great. The french fries and sour gummi worms are awesome. Will I still have some. Of course, I am human after all. But, I am going to be more careful with my choices. 

Also, because I had gestational diabetes during my last pregnancy. So, I am a greater risk this time.

But, like I said, one day at a time. 

I feel good today though. I know the crap around me isn’t going to completely disappear. 

But, I feel good today. 


Personal challenge

It has been quite some time since I have added anything new here. 

Part of me was just disgusted and wanted to avoid everyone. 

Another part of me just didn’t have anything to say. 

Starting today, I begin a new journey to get the rest of my life back. 

Divorce is done, even though there are still custody issues, but I really have no more excuses other than I became lazy. That is not me. 

I am in control of my own life. Each day I wake up, it is up to me to make decisions that will affect how my day goes, how my life goes. 

I will not allow anyone or anything to hold me back. I have a lot of work to do. 

I really became derailed after my divorce, but I feel like it is time to take control again. 

I know it won’t be perfect, and I know I will have days where I struggle, but I am keeping the mindset that it is my life, my choices and I tell the tale. 

I am not going to write here every day, but I plan to update my progress as I need to. Not only to motivate others, but to hold myself accountable and to celebrate my triumphs. 

This is an entire life make over. I want to be healthy again. Started smoking when I got separated. Quit working out. I want to succeed at my Jamberry business. Be a great mom and role model for my 3 girls. 

Enough is enough. One day at a time. I will get back to where I was and more. 

I have great family and people in my life. Todd never gives up on me. It is time to be brave and do amazing things. 

I know what needs to be done. 

It has been awhile…

So, I have been busy handling some shit. 

I have come to find that I am never going to just have peace. No matter what it is, I have to fight for it. Nothing falls into place for me.

On a side note, I didn’t intend to come on here and bore people with my problems today. 

Today I want to share a picture with you. 

I hear a lot about women who are reluctant to lift. They don’t want to be all bulky. Trust me, unless you are pumping substances into your body, you won’t end up looking like She-Hulk. 

My arms are probably my best success. Right now anyways. You can tell I am fit, but until I am flexing, I don’t look like I have guns. 

I can not stress enough how important it is to build muscle as you are working out. Please do more than cardio. Even if it is light weights. 

You will enjoy it too and feel empowered. 

Mind + Muscle Connection

If you have never heard of it, it might be one the most important things to remember while training. 

Visualize the muscles you are training. If you don’t know what muscles you are working, then you have bigger problems. 

I guarantee that if you use your mind to hone in on the muscles in play, you will feel them working. 

Don’t just pull and tug stuff while you are working out. Form is also very important, or you will be working muscles that are not your target. This could cause strain, premature tiredness, and ineffectual training.

If you have no clue what you are doing, ask for help to avoid injury and maximize your workout. 

Starting to get it back

My muscle and shape is returning. Thank you muscle memory! 

I just need to lean out. Why is the diet so hard for me right now? I guess that 5 lb bag of sour patch kids I bought from the grocery store earlier doesn’t help. They are super yummy though. 

I get all my meals prepared and put away. I start off good. Three good days of being almost on target. My before bed snacking is the worst. I almost wish Todd would smack the food away from me at night. But, then I start to lose it mid week.

I skip meals, I eat crap. Oh my god, it makes me so mad. 

I keep cheering myself on to get it right, and then I make excuses. I am not an excuse maker either.

I guess at least I know what the issue is and I know how to fix it, I just need to do it, commit. 

I will be here again…

Was busy with quality time

Meal prepping, laughing, and listening to good heavy music on pandora. 

That is what nights with your significant other should be like. 

Not separate, not silent. 

Enjoy and make the moments with the person you love count. Be friends, have fun. Don’t dismiss what they do. Make sure they know it. Always. 

Meals for the next three days.

Homemade protein bars