Some more of my favorites.
Some more of my favorites.
I love taking pictures.
If it impacts me a certain way, I take a picture.
Some people may be annoyed with it.
I have a decent digital camera, but I seriously don’t know how to use it.
So many settings.
I capture as many great things as I can on my phone.
I capture life, beauty, special moments and places.
Do I take too many photos?
I think I make so many moments become great memories.
I remember growing up and my parents would take pictures of birthdays and holidays and other odds and ends.
Then, they eventually got around to taking them to get developed. Only to find that so many, now printed pictures, were garbage.
I can capture a moment in time. Now.
This is a view I couldn’t pass up this evening.
I am a super creative person. Crafty and artistic.
I laughed recently as I was cleaning out the closet and reorganizing some boxes.
On any given day, I can pretty much guarantee that if you need or want to do some kind of project, I have the tools necessary to complete it.
Need a basket? I have some, with or without a handle?
Iron on letters, ribbon, artificial flowers, several types of adhesives…beads, buttons and yarn. To name a few.
I am literally a tiny craft store.
A lot of my stuff comes in handy when a makeshift repair needs made. Like a jewelry making ring to act as a zipper pull.
But, drawing is something I am only so so with.
I used to put little notes in my 9 year olds lunch bag.
But, that got boring. Recently, I began making drawings of some of their favorite characters.
I google pictures of them, and after my kiddos go to bed, I draw.
So now, it has become such a hit that I get special requests.
My preschooler doesn’t do lunch, but she has begun to make requests.
I don’t draw every night. Sometimes I am just too tired. I have also tried and failed with some.
There are way better artists out there.
But, I can only imagine the smiles on their faces when they see what I have drawn.
My oldest has started to hang them on the bulletin board in her room.
She loves Mario and a game called Five Nights at Freddies.
We all like Cartoon Network and Nickelodeon.
It’s fun to see what I can actually draw.
It is also super fun to do something special for my girls.
Yes, I know “gonna” is not correct.
I excelled in school at english and writing.
It has always been something I enjoy.
I used to write poetry all the time.
So now, I am going to try my hand at a book.
What about, you ask?
I could write about my life. All its ups and downs and twists and turns.
But, one little girl inspired me.
I am going to write a kids book.
One evening, my 4 year old was drawing with her sisters.
She came to me proudly holding a piece of paper. She was happy to show me her latest picture.
As she explained to me each character and what was going on, my eyes kept going back to one specific doodle.
I kept thinking how damn cute this little guy is.
He needed a name. So I asked her what she would name him.
She called him Barnie. I went for the non-traditional spelling so as not to be confused with that other once famous character.
So, here we have Barnie. This cute, little, and happy character.
I have to write a story about him.
I have actually finished a rough draft of the story and what goes on each page.
And because my daughter created this character, she is going to supply the illustrations.
This may take time. But, it will be so worth it. I am going to gather her drawings and use them in the book.
My idea may go nowhere.
And that is ok. I will get to scratch something off my bucket list and make a memory with my child.
I challenged myself to at least one thing.
It wasn’t big. But, it counts.
I have been wanting so badly to make my Jamberry business work.
One day I will get all pumped and want to really start putting some serious effort into success.
Then the following day a kid gets sick, then I get sick. Bills aren’t going to get paid and the stress just has your brain going through all possible outcomes. Or an old dog has become increasingly tough to handle.
There is always some obstacle that pops up to knock any positivity out of me.
And that there my friends is an excuse. In which I used to boast about making no excuses and going after what I wanted.
I lost that spark. I lost that fire.
I can not believe the path of destruction my divorce left.
But, Today, Today I did one thing different.
I exposed myself a little.
I made little packages, only 5 and left them in the mailroom. A flyer, business card, some samples and application instructions. Just as a test run.
A few hours later, I went to get the mail and they were all gone.
I have a feeling they did not disappear the way that I intended.
But, I did it. I did something I have been making excuses not to do.
I need to make more and I need to take them with me whenever I go.
And tomorrow, something else.
I never planned for my life to go the way it has.
In fact, I never really envisioned anything other than being happy.
Is it careless to allow life to go as it should?
Should I have made sure that I had a clear and precise plan?
What I am sure of, is that everything has happened for a reason. Even when I have had doubts.
With every step, each obstacle or victory or test or reward, has shaped my life the way it truly needed to go.
I am not a religious person, but I understand why having something to believe in is so important.
It gives you the hope to continue going when you don’t think you can.
In my mindset, I have been through a lot. In each persons mind, their fight is unique and worse than anybody elses.
Just remember that, and don’t try to down play their struggle.
I believe my journey, no matter what I thought it was supposed to be, happened the way it was meant to.
I have found that I have come almost full circle.
I have found that “person” I was supposed to be with.
I have learned about the importance of love and trust and family.
I am coming back to that creative and unique chick I once was.
All I can feel is that I feel more at home now in my skin, and I lost my way for a bit.
I have always been driven by my desire to create, to make, to be a part of anything that pertained to art. Music, writing, drawing, painting, giving, creating….those are things that drive me and keep my heart alive.
I always hoped that one day I would be “famous” so to speak for something that involved my talents.
Things I had to learn, but things that I taught myself and had an abilty for. Things that made me happy to share with others.
I have always loved to write.
I have always loved being creative. Making floral arrangements, crocheting or coming up with my own ideas for something new and neat!
I love photography and taking pictures of everything. Capturing moments and memories and beauty.
I love to sing even though I am only so so. Music has always been fuel for me.
I would love to show my girls to never give up on their dreams.
I am almost 37 years old, and I feel like I have a whole hell of a lot to still offer.
Just want to find that thing that helps me to connect with the world. I want to make a difference!
Much like my writing, my exercising has also been sporadic.
But, I am having another good day today.
I am 16 weeks today. I have about 4 more until my next ultrasound. Hopefully we find that we have a healthy baby, and perhaps know better how to address baby Meyers.
So, today I did some working out, the best I could without being in a gym.
I have tons of before and after shots and progress pics that I can use as motivation.
I have done this before, I know I can do it again.
This being one of them:
All in all, I am becoming anxious to have this baby in my arms. I still have so much more to go.
Been feeling tiny movements lately. Over the next two weeks the baby apps say the baby will double in size.
Hoping then I can share those movements with Todd.
He is a first timer, this is all new and exciting for him.
I have been excited every time.
No matter what hell you go through, it is all worth it in the end.
A supreme joy that you can not compare to anything else.
The best thing you can do is try to enjoy the journey.
My skin has been a mess. Dry. Oily. Breaking out.
My pants have been getting tighter.
My hair has gotten thicker and in deperate need of an overhaul.
My back has gotten tighter and my skin has gotten looser.
Some nights when I try to sleep insomnia steps in, or total discomfort keeps me tossing and turning.
I may complain, but it is all part of the beautiful disaster that pregnancy truly is.
The instant and unconditional love you have when that baby is placed before you erases all the obstacles along the way.