In the beginning, emotions are raging. Life exploded, but yet came to a standstill all at the same time.
That sensory overload is extremely disruptive, and there are a lot of pieces to pick up. A lot of questions. A lot of confusion. A lot of everything.
People make mistakes. People sometimes do stupid things.
The problem is when people can not move past the disruptive phase.
I am definitely in a new phase of life.
One that I belong in.
Life has changed so much over the past almost 2 years. Not just for me, but for everyone.
I have been through so much chaos along the way. But, no matter how down I get about things, somehow I keep moving forward. Proving to myself that even though I aspire for more, I am worthwhile, and successful in my own way.
I no longer have time for regret, or to hold grudges or retaliation.
I am almost 37 years old. I have a baby on the way. I have an ailing father in the hospital. I have three small beings that depend on me. I have way too much going on to hold on to the past.
Some people can’t seem to do this.
Why? I wish I knew. I wish it would stop.
I live an honest life. I have nothing to hide. I do the best I can and more almost every day. I try to be selfless and giving where I can.
Why do I need to keep defending my honor when I know it is true and real?
Nobody is perfect. You are not better or worse than me. We are equal, but we are different.
That is all.
You are not destroying my life or knocking me down. Your childish attacks are only giving me more courage and fight.
More knowledge, more power.
So, to you…you do whatever you think you need to do to feel better about yourself.
I know who I am.