No Direction

I sometimes think about how life would be now if I stayed in my marriage. 

Do I miss it? Not so much. What I think about is the uncertainty of my future. I would be thinking about that regardless, that is what the anxiety does for me. 

I have no career path, and in less than 3 years, I won’t have the alimony to fall back on. 

Yes, I have Todd, but I still worry about making it. Some people say that it is so long from now. I am the kind of person who likes to be prepared. It scares me that I have no future solution.

Things can change and they probably will several times before then. But, life is unpredictable like the weather. 

I want to make sure that there are no major worries about paying my bills and taking care of my girls. 

I try not to dwell on it and live each day the best I can, but sometimes those thoughts come creeping up. They blast my anxiety into full effect. 

I don’t know how to fix it and I think that bothers me more than anything….


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