One of the most important things I had hoped to accomplish with my ‘open letter’ post, was to reach my dad and family.
I wanted them to know the truth. I wanted them to be able to understand.
My dad personally replied to my post and it almost brought me to tears.
I am a good person and I am human. We all make mistakes, but the past is the past, and the person I once was, is not who I am now.
My personality is the same, but the moment I found out I was pregnant with my oldest is the moment I changed my life.
I am super responsible now. I have to be, because my girls depend on me. I have to be because that is the right way.
I wanted my family to know that even though I was a loose cannon growing up, that I am not that way now. My divorce was not about me regressing, but about me progressing.
I hope that his words were genuine. I hope that he believes me and believes in me. That is all I ever wanted. His support, his concern, his care…I wanted a dad.
I hate feeling like no matter what I do it is the wrong thing. I hate feeling like I am a disappointment.
I have always been a complex person. But, I am also so very simple once you solve the riddle. I just want to be happy.
I hope that everyone understands that. It is a very simple request. I hate that people had to get hurt along the way, but for me and my girls it was the best decision.
I promise it will all be ok. I do not fail at that which I want to accomplish.